"Like" Stinks Too!

Eeek! I just told my e-crush to call me!!! AHHH! What was I thinking?! What I was thinking is that this whole “good things come to those who wait”, and “I’m not asking for trouble” bs hasn’t really reaped any stellar candidates in the life partner department, so maybe it’s time to buck the system and see how things turn out. I mean, you’re still single and unattached, so it’s not like you’ve got anything to lose. It’s just such a foreign territory that I suddenly have this urge to go straight home and hide underneath my bed. AHHHH!

I just keep getting ahead of myself though. I mean, I don’t want to meet him until I am much smaller, and that’s going to take months. Sometimes I think “It’s not that bad, just meet him and if he’s that shallow then who cares”. Then I catch a side view of my fat ass and I know that while my eyes are used to seeing me this way, and while I can see past the flab to the thin(ner) woman inside, I’m still a rather large filly. I just don’t want to set myself up for anything negative, or him either! That wouldn’t be fair to either of us. Well, que sera sera! Stay tuned….