Homestretch Aborted

Going to the big LV! I’m starting to get really excited about this trip, although it is tinged w/regret about Rootie. She just spent the past 3 days w/my Grandma b/c I was doing presentations in Brownsville, then I’m gone for 5 more days on vacation, and when I return she’s getting her monthly shot for her Addisons AND she’s getting her teeth cleaned. She’s going to be one sad little puppy for a while, and she has no idea what she’s in for. Poor baby.

Speaking of poor babies, my last entry included (or rather was largely made up of) references to my e-crush. Well, my b-day card was met with a grateful response and a phone call that Saturday evening. We talked from about 6pm until 1:30am, which I thought was a pretty good sign. Then no call. And no e-mail. And now it’s Thursday and my impatient and curious self is thinking “WHAT THE FUCK?!!” on an hourly basis. While I was bored in McAllen I texted said e-crush which prompted a call that lasted all of 4 minutes before someone else called and he got off the phone w/me, telling me he would call me back. It’s Friday morning and I’m still waiting for that call. Strike three, and YOU’RE OUT!

Ok, I know that I am an impatient person, and that I’ve never really dated so I don’t know how “the game” is played, but therein lies my predicament: why is it a game? Why can’t you just like someone and show them how much you enjoy their company? Granted, this guy could have any number of reasons to not call me, some which may be valid and some that may be allusions to the fact that he’s not a good prospective friend, but shit shouldn’t be this difficult, should it? Or am I making it difficult? All I know is that the daydreams will stop (I’ve masturbated no less than 4 times while fantasizing about this guy), the little things that come to mind that I want to tell/share with him, wondering what he’s doing and when he’ll call next…all over. And sadly, the happy little lilt in my voice and jaunt in my step from thinking that I’ve found a guy-friend and that he’s a cool person. And so the search begins anew……

Hey, you found this guy, so at least they're out there.