Slut Puppy

S’OK. I met one of my match guys and on the second date we ended up fooling around. Sigh….It’s not a huge deal b/c it’s not like we had sex or anything, and he’s a mixture of Tomas, DJ, and Shawn which means he’s dark, likes to lie, and won’t try any new foods, all rolled into one! I mean, sure, I’m disappointed in myself for doing that b/c that’s not the kind of person that I have been, and being new at the whole dating thing means that I’m going to need to redefine how I’d like to present myself. It felt like a good rebound thing though, like I was stripping power from my ex and bolstering my ability to find someone. And in this way he’ll stop contacting me (typical meskin’ who acts like an admiral man but is really just trying anything to get into your panties) and I won’t have to feel bad for not returning his calls b/c I know I can do so much better.

While that sounds awful may I just interject the facts that he did not brush his teeth in the 21 hours we spent together, and when I told him I would not have unsafe sex w/him he looked deep into my eyes and said “Trust me”. I'm trying to establish a new outlook on the whole guilt-ridden Catholic girl front, but I'm not ready to go all "Sex in the City". No, dear reader, bodily fluids were not exchanged, but not because he didn't try. I know, I’m a little hurt and dejected b/c he hasn’t called today, which is a sure-fire bet that I was his weekend sancha and he’s over it, but in my heart of hearts I know that it’s attention from a man that I truly crave, and not this specific person’s company, and that’s really unfair to him. (And OMG, he had the smallest penis I have EVER SEEN! I haven’t seen many but I honestly didn’t think a grown man could have a member that tiny! 3 inches, and I’m being generous!)

PS: Vegas was fun-no ex drama-and I'll write more about that later.