I Think I'm Dumb...I Think I'm Dumb....I Think I'm Dumb...

Moment in history: every guy I've ever fooled around w/(fooling around = more than a kiss = groping n' such), with the exception of my ex, is now one of my friends on myspace. No, I haven't fooled around with ALL my male friends on myspace, but it's still a strange feeling. I'm trying to figure out what that means about me. I've never been the type to stay in touch with people long term because I do believe that there are people put into your life during times when you really need them, that can't travel the whole way through with you. Think about it: your best friend in grade school was in your class or lived next door. They are friends not b/c you liked the same music and laughed at the same jokes, but b/c their parents chose to live close to where your parents chose to live. Does that mean you will really get along with them for the rest of your lives, or that you should try to get along with them for the rest of your lives? Sure they hold a special place in our hearts, and they are a part of our memories forever, but Tasha Butler got pregnant at 17, now has 4 children and 4 baby-daddies. I'm thankful that she taught me how to roller skate, but I'm not sure that means that I've got to go hang out at Brewskies on the weekend to keep in touch.

That being said, why am I still in contact with these guys? Does it mean that much to me? I don't think it does, but it must… AHH, I'm like the 40-Yr-Old Virgin putting the penis on a pedestal!!! (Well, I'm like the 40-yr-old Virgin for more than just that reason alone, I will admit) J I just believe in perception. If you think you're one way, but everyone else sees as being the opposite, which are you really? I mean, I can think I'm the sweetest person ever, but if 9 of 10 people who know me think I'm a bitch, what does that make me? So I've always THOUGHT that I was someone who could let go of people, but here I am with all the notches on my belt all close to me. TOO WEIRD!

I know, I know. Take a pill or a swill and just chill. I think too much.

(And there are 4)